So, Happy 2 year anniversary from the day you decided to choose me out of all the girls. Not that means anything to you now, but I bet it did 2 years ago. I mean there must have been some reason why you made that decision. When you broke it off for the first time, I told myself that you just needed time to yourself and that I was going to wait for you to figure everything out.

After 2 months you came back and knowing all the hurt it put us through, you swore you’d never do it again. Well, guess you proved to not be trustworthy for the second time. I thought the second time round would hurt less since I already went through the whole break-up process once. But on the contrary, it ended up being harder: because this time not only do I have you to blame for being a jerk, but I have also me who took you back thinking you won’t bail out again when things gets hard.

Honestly though I don’t regret it. Why? Because looking back two years ago I remember our first date when we went to go watch my best friend play volleyball over an hour away and then we went to McDonald’s but that wasn’t even the best part. We got back to my place and sat in your truck for hours just talking. About all the scars on you and how you got them, about what we liked to do and the crazy fact that you went to the same school as me and I never had a clue. Then the third or fourth date we went to your grandmas and rode in the tractor. I remember sitting on your lap while the song Love you like that by Canaan Smith came on and you sang it quietly while we cruised around the field.

But the day I remember the most is today on October 8th 2016 we were laying in my bed at my moms and you woke me up and whispered in my ear with a grin on your face asking me to be your girlfriend. I felt like the luckiest and happiest girl in the whole world at that moment. Then I got my apartment and you started staying more and more and one night I started falling asleep on your chest and you whispered I love you for the first time thinking I was sleeping.

But even with all the good memories and moments I will never forget, I know that I will also never forget the bad ones either. I am not writing this to put you down or trash talk you because even with what has happened, at one point you were everything I needed and wanted. I fell head over heels in love with you. And a part of me always will. But I know now that I am better off without you.

As I look back today though I am glad I can say that I am okay without you now. I can see memories on Facebook and not cry and my heart doesn’t sting when someone mentions your name anymore. I can tell people what happened without trying to choke down the tears. And I finally can say I am happy again. I am me again.

So from the bottom of my heart I hope you are happy, and I hope you are finally figuring yourself and life out because that’s all I ever wanted for you. I like to think I am a good enough person to hope that this hasn’t hurt you as much as it hurt me. I doubt you’ll ever even read this article, but if so, I hope it finds you well. I hope you eventually reach a place where you’re healthy enough to be open with yourself and keep those who care about you in your life. So Happy what would have been 2 year Anniversary!

From now on it’ll just be another day out of 365 days.

Sincerely, Your Ex-Girlfriend